We're PREGNANT!

Ben and I have been trying for a baby since Feb. of last year and found out on January 13 2009 that we're pregant! It was a long ordeal, but well worth the wait!

OUR STORY:
My OBGYN told me I wasn't ovulating and that I needed to take medication to help me get pregnant (after three months of trying). I was devastated and felt like I was broken. I felt like the one thing I was supposed to be able to do as a woman (without much effort) was becoming a weight on my shoulders that I was dragging around with me everywhere. Each month I did everything I was supposed to and more! And each month, there was no baby. Not to mention, everyone else seemed to be getting pregnant. Ben was so supportive. He would encourage me, hold me, dry my tears, pray for me...but nothing he did could shake the despair for long.

My last round of medication was in October. We prayed so hard, but always balanced our prayers with "Your will be done" & "In Your perfect timing". I felt at times that God wasn't hearing me, and other times I could feel Him hold me as I cried. But in the end, still no baby.

November came & I was sent to a specialist. Ben & I underwent tests (which we passed with flying colors, thank God) and to no one's suprise, I didn't ovulate that month. My specialist wanted me to undergo an outpatient surgical procedure in January that would determine if there was a problem (that wasn't showing up by other means) and I was afraid. I wasn't scared of the procedure, I was afraid of what she might find.

Ben and I went to the Lord again in prayer...and I finally stopped trying to get myself pregnant. I layed my life down at his feet and told Him "I'm going to love, serve, & praise you" even if that meant no baby...ever. I told Him that it was more important to me for Him to get the glory and I was willing to wait for that to happen. I didn't want to rely on myself, a medication, doctor, or medical procedure to get me pregnant anymore.

December thankfully brought much joy, peace, and distraction. Ben and I had a wonderful month together. Family, Christmas, my birthday...and to my surprise...I ovulated! Without medication or anything! I didn't dare get my hopes up, but I put my hope and trust in the Lord...and He gave me the desire of my heart! I conceived and will have a baby of my very own to hold next fall! I give the Lord all the praise and the glory for this pregnancy and trust him to bring to fruition the good work/creation He has begun in me. Thank you for your love & faithfulness Father!